So this is me.....

Once upon a time.......just kidding, im 28 have three kids two with an asd diagnosis, and just found out myself that i have aspergers, i once saw a show about a kid with aspergers who wanted to be a comedian, and he went on stage and said "so i have aspergers, mmmmm Ass burgers", i cant get it out of my head, everytime i hear the word i make the association, and it makes me want to laugh out loud.

Im still the same person i was before i got diagnosed, only now i hope i will be able to understand me better, its hard going through life knowing your different from other people but not knowing exactly why, in order to get to here, ive been told im depressed and given some of the greatest legal narcotics ive ever taken, EFFEXOR being the main one that blew the skull off me unexspectadly at about 9 in the morning, it was like taking exctacy but not knowing, and then thinking you had in fact taken exctacy and that,then they tell me i have a mental illness, actually the words i believe the lunatic used were "You are, Mentally Ill", ... the blind leading the blind if you ask me.

So....where do we go from here, if we meet in person and i dont know you or anything about you, you'll probably think im rude, or unpleasant. i find it easier for people to come to my little world than having to brave the unknown of theirs, if they come to where im comfortable, then i feel at ease when meeting them, i dont seem to panic.

I have the worst time with new people, places, situations, i hate shopping if its not planned, and if it is planned and changed i loose my self altogether, its hard to explain, i guess the easiest way is to describe it for me : ..........

we go shopping, ive been told before hand that were going to shop a,b and c, on the way im ok coz i know were going to shop a b & c, thats not a problem, but we get there and none of the shops has what we went for, then i think this shop is terrible, why dont they have it? i need to know ?. and by jesus im not going to any other shop to find it, its not my fault they dont have what we need, and if its not for me personally then im definatly not going off track to find it, im going to the car, i dont care if your not coming, were supposed to be going to the car. we went to the three shops, they didnt have it we go home.

im rambling on now so ill just stop. ill try to update this blog everyday with things that happen and how they affect me. or something.

hope you enjoy reading this .

Jont.